Psalm 119: 27, 34
Make me understand the way of Your precepts, so I will meditate on Your wonders.
Give me understanding, that I may observe Your Law, and keep it with all my heart.
As I read and study God's Word, He gives me understanding of His ways, the ways He designed His creation to work and operate. Then the deeper I meditate on it, muse on it, think about it, the more dots I can connect of how everything works with everything else, working together. Then I can order my own life to cooperate with how He designed it all to work, trusting Him with all my heart.
And when things in my life don't seem to be working out like I thought they would, then I remember that this life is my school, I've not graduated yet. God still tests me, to strengthen my faith in Him, my trusting of Him. I know He loves me more than I can imagine, and He will cause everything to work out to my eventual benefit, even as He receives all the glory. Patience and perseverance are not exactly what I ask for, but God knows I need to grow in these qualities.
So I'll wait on Him, doing what I can to prepare, but without taking matters into my own hands. I don't want to force matters, but wait on Him to cause everything to fall into place in His way, and in His time.
Even so, come, Lord Jesus!
